Saturday, November 27, 2010

Reasons why.

Time to do my laundry!
Time to do my homework!
Time to sleep!
Spencer comes home!
Time to write in my journal!
Time to read my scriptures!
Spencer comes home!
Time to find an institute class!

We had a good chat on the phone today. I love him. I'm glad his birthday is this week because it gives me a chance to celebrate the fact that his parents had him, that he ended up here, that we managed to stay friends.

In other news: I love/hate the holidays. I love them because (a) I have time to recuperate from my daily life and (b) I get to hang out with my family. I hate them because we always seem to have some sort of mini-crisis, whether it's one of Dad's holiday meltdowns (which tend to happen on every major holiday of the year) or some kind of weird secret that is discovered or whatever.

Sometimes I'm more tired because of my house than I am because of my homework.

Anyway. I started cleaning my room today, and I think I have previously existed as a hoarder. Which is kind of freaky. I still have all of the stuff I collected when I was in the height of my OCD mania, but I donated a TON of clothes and threw away a bunch of pointless documents that nobody would ever really need. If I manage to get all my homework done tomorrow I'll start alphabetizing my books. They're hideous right now.

Started reading the collected essays of Ralph Waldo Emerson today. Love that guy -- so zen, and (as I discovered by reading his bio) the outside world thought he was incredibly mediocre. If only his professors at Harvard had known that he would go one to become one of the most prominent names in American literature! I bet they were super embarrassed when they met him again in Heaven. Probably all sorts of humble, haha.

Anyway, off to write in my real journal. Tralalalala.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

:) :) :)

Tonight I went on a date with Alex, and it was awesome. He was a super-gentleman (door opening!) and excellent company and I had a wonderful time.

On top of the fact that he's waaaaay talented and cute and a total sweetheart, Alex is a really lighthearted person, and tonight that is exactly what I needed. :)

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

All in the timing...

I have noticed an interesting phenomenon lately. It seems that every time I get the chance to start dealing with my own life, someone random pops up with a much bigger and more emotionally demanding set of problems. And of course, because I believe in a weird sort of Mormon Karma, I feel like it's my duty to set my own issues aside and help people out.

Today, that perspective changed. Not because I've decided the world can piss off, but because I realized that there have been a couple of people who have taken advantage of me just to satisfy some random Attention Quotient. And one of them made an attempt at my sympathies this afternoon.

Granted, this person doesn't know what I am in the process of addressing in my personal life. This person doesn't know that I am currently waiting for a prescription refill to come in, or that I am trying to clear up some nasty energy blockades. I guess what bothered me is that this person never really seems to care about what I'm going through. Apparently I'm supposed to be sunshine and rainbows all the time.

I am more than happy to help people out when they genuinely need it. I am. I love taking care of my friends and family. But if someone does something for attention, or knows full well what their consequences will be... sorry. There's nothing I can do, except for hope that they find whatever it is they're looking for.

In other news, I love Spencer. He is a wonderful friend (even when he's being a douche or accidentally hitting me in the head) and I'm glad I have him.
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