I have been sick with the world's most heinous cold for the past three days. No taste buds. No air. No voice. No hearing. No sleep. Still trying to recover from surgery, and damnitalltohell, my body is completely miserable. I am sitting in the back office at work literally bawling my eyes out.
And speaking of work, I hate my job. I hate being alone for so many hours in a row, with nobody to talk to and nothing to think about except all of the stupid things in my life that I'm missing or behind on because I never get any sleep. Being here makes me the loneliest. $8.50 an hour is not enough when you consider that I'm getting compensated for what essentially equates to hardcore psychological damage.
I've picked up blogging again as a way to distract myself, but it doesn't really seem to be working. I want to see my friends again. I want to be healthy. I want to get to class on time, I want to get good grades, and most importantly I want to get back to being the Hannah that I am naturally. But that's never going to happen if I don't have the time to recover, you know?
Eff. Effity eff eff.
Bring a pet to work, or let homeless people stay there for free if they keep you company.
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